My Story

every bulimics night mare am hear in mexico 3 meals a day with my mum 
has any one got any tips of how to keep the food intake to a minimum ?
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im goin on holiday for christmas two whole weeks in mexico forst class sure thatsa good thing.
but hang on    ALL INCLUSIVE FOOD SEVED THROUGH-OUT THE DAY 
hell no !
i dont know how am goin to do it, i mean i dont spend tym with my mum atal wer not close but 2 weeks away with her in a foriegn country :(

has anyone got any tips how i an keep foo to an absolute minimum ?


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for anyone who lives in the uk there was an article about livejournal in the new of the world i think saying how its full of pro anorexia sites and all this bull because someone slashed their wrists online ! they want to get live journal shut down because they thinks thats what were all going to do my mum gave me a big lecture about this syt because she nos i use it. now she watches me eat every last bite a bit of a change from not careing atal dont you think 



lost a pound JUST A LOUSY POUND
on my fast today guna stuick to it goin on holiday to mexico for christmas cant look any fatter then i am :) 



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So yeh , im at my ultimate low right now feel like s**** have b/p for 2 days now wich supose is good but then again not doing me any favour with the scales  my mom is noticing the weight loss now oh welll im doing thid because of her calling me nanes now she can feel some guilt like me when i go to eat something ANYTHING now not just something junkish ! oh well i really dotn care what she has to say anymore maybe is she was more of a mother then i wouldnt be liek this now she can pay the consequences am i right ?  YES I AM well its nerly lunch time in school were will i be i here you ask ? in the IT suit browseing this or doing some school work BOO ! ino but ya gta do what you gta do with this ED  just take my mind off everythin listen to my ipod or something 


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Just bin the weekend  i did good this weekend
lost 4 pounds! since Monday which is ok could do better like buh yano 
its a start 
got a lot more to do though
a hell lot more to shift by Christmas
So yeh my nan cooked a hugeeee dinner yesterday and made me eat all of it !!! how rude is she ?!?!?1
she just starts goin on and on and on all the time about food its sooo annyoing shes bin watching too much
T.v
Buh it was gone 15 minutes later down the toilet haha !
FOOL 
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Im on a fast 2day its 12.05 now :)
nothing has past my mouth
im in school 
turning the comp around so no1 can see what im writing haha 
well yeh ill tell yas what happens

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 :( thing are hard at the mo ! 
need sum support 
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So yeh i was all depressed at the beggining of the day 
But av just weighed myself and i have actally lost 14pounds since i started livejournal about  2 months ago :)
I was doubting at wether all this is worth it the emotional and phyisical stress and strain on my body 
But this has gave me the push i needed to carry on 
Im here for the long run :)


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So im sittin here 
eating
1 eggwhite
thats all 4 2day 
just on the green tea  and water 
yayy me :) goin the gym later burn sum previous calories frm ed buls etc
45cals in each Grrrrrrr
Green tea is much better 2 cals :):)
Well i shal post later to see how every1 is doin 
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i feel like shit
got bad chest pains back pains
n gess wa im STARVING hahahah oh well lost 5 pounds in 3 dayz and you think im stopping hahaha asifff
well 2mra i think i myt had soup or sumthin i realy had a craving 4 mashed potatoe n den it made me feel sick hhaah the thought of all them carbz are you mad lol .


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the weekend has bin so hard
if just threw up everything i cantt have that shit in me anymore 
i see my friends eatin pizza n all shit 4 lunch n it makes me ill 
i didnt choose to be like this its because of my mum 
calling me fat making digs over the holidays
well is she in 4 a shock this is all to get bac at her making me so unhappy with myself 
half the time i just wish i wasnt here i no she wud prefer it 
oh well she will get it hahah.


well iv had salad today and thats it im pretty hungry but i will just drink water to fill me 
iv starved myself all weekend and lost 5pounds wich is ok i supose cud do better 

i think my friends are starting to click on about my bulima .oh well as long as my mum doesnt 
not like she would care 


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feeling great havnt eatin nethin since lunch wich wasnt much sicked up wa was there n then just did sum situps n did 3 hours of dancin pureeee cardio n just drank red bull to keep me going :):)

feel quite shitty about myself 2day :(

had like 4 mouthfuls of pasta at school 
n then had to small biscuits at my friends cafe must of bin about 100 cals or sumthin :@:@
n a coke wasnt that bad but i feel very bloated 

so i decided to do 
200 situups 
100 crunches
100 squats

so hopefully i might of burnt liek a cal of that digusting food i mean i wish i wud just eat nothing or very very very little but i go to dancin n i will like faint n that wud be shamefull considering iv faint like what ? 5 times in school and once in M&S :( so its not an option unfortunatley but at little as possible baby !!  

im guna do an all liquids fast 2mora maybe tango cos it has 28 cals per 2 litre bottle how great !!!



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Woooo very happy with myself 2day only had a sandwich n a frescato wich is 99% fat free go mee n then just dun a solid 10 mins of situps cant do any jumin jacks cz me mum is dwnsterz . a downfall 2 2day had a headache all day took paracetemol just made me drowzy n to top it all off i have school 2mra :(:( booo well the dinners are horrible so atleast i wount have to eat ahhhhhhhhahhahah !


think thin 

love you all 
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